65 Roses

Cystic Fibrosis, also called "65 Roses" by young children who have the disease. Try saying 65 Roses quickly - it sounds surprisingly like cystic fibrosis. It's chronic. It's ugly. It's incurable. And, thankfully, Rebekah's test came back negative. Yes, for the last four days, we have known that Rebekah could potentially have cystic fibrosis and that she would be tested for it this morning.

Rebekah has had chronic respiratory problems and chronic GI issues for months. Both are significant markers for cystic fibrosis (CF). Last week, we learned that Rebekah is outputting large amounts of fats in her stools. Also another indicator for CF. I'm sure you can imagine that we were very concerned about the test this morning. Because of Rebekah's compromised lungs and immune system, a chronic disease like CF would shorten her life span considerably.

We were shaken. I was terrified. How in the world would we deal with something like this on top of all of Rebekah's other health problems? But, in the end, Drew reminded us both that God has His hand on Rebekah. He made Rebekah just the way He wanted her to be. Whether or not she had CF, or some other kind of illness is no surprise to God. Our job is to love and care for our little girl for as long as God entrusts her to us. And when her job is done here, she will be in a much better place than we can even dream of.

Not that we wanted the test to be positive. But, we had a choice. We could choose to be upset and bitter that Rebekah could potentially have her life shortened and deal with this debilitating disease. Or, we could continue to trust God and His plan for our family. I think I can honestly say we came to the point that we were ready to accept the test results no matter what. Of course, we are joyfully praising God that He did not choose this road for us. But, if He had, we would be praising Him still, for trusting us with such a task.

We still do not know what is causing Rebekah to output such large amounts of diarrhea, nor why she has such a high fat content in her stool. There is one other test that should come back early next week that will show if she is lacking pancreatic enzymes. There are several different reasons for that as well, one of which is Crohn's disease. That is also a very unpleasant, lifelong disease. Based on the results of the enzyme test, we may have further testing done next week. The likelihood of all of this being related to a dairy protein allergy is getting slimmer the farther we go along. Rebekah has not had any breastmilk since last Wednesday, and we should begin to see some improvement by now. For sure we should see some improvement by the middle to the end of the week if it is dairy related.

This afternoon Rebekah has started to run a low-grade fever and has started retching. It could be something as simple as a little stomach bug; it could be caused by drainage that is irritating her stomach; it could be related to the diarrhea, but not likely since the diarrhea has been ongoing for so long. The doctors are keeping a close eye on Rebekah this afternoon to monitor her symptoms.

Even with all of this going on, home is a possibility. Obviously, if she continues to run a fever or have unexplained retching, that will put a hold on things, but if we are just waiting for test results, we will most certainly be allowed to wait at home. So my prayer is not that we will be at home, but that we will be in the right place. If Rebekah is fine, I would love to go home. However, if there is still something going on that needs to be monitored by the medical staff, I am content to wait here in the hospital with her until we have answers.

Thank you for all of your prayers, and please continue to pray that we find some answers to Rebekah's tummy problems.

Nancy